today is september 1 and my 30 day facebook fast is officially over.
it gives me a tinge of anxiety to even think about logging in.
i don’t miss it.
i know i have missed things.
i know when i open that account i am going to have missed out on events, meetups, happy hours, networking events and all i can think is that if i really wanted to be there. if i really wanted to be affiliated with that group. if i really wanted to see you. if i really wanted to know how you are. if i really wanted to know your stance on the gun control or birth control or government control. if i REALLY wanted to know, i would have sought it out. i didn’t quit the internet. i didn’t quit life.
i know that i had been missing things. by looking down, at my phone, and not up at what is happening right in front of my face. working so hard to accurately capture the beauty in each moment as it was happening and in turn not truly experiencing it. i work on making baskets in the car now instead of wasting away on facebook. we have conversations, about what we read, hear, see, think, watch.
it isn’t that i don’t care about the people i keep up with via facebook. it is that i can no longer blindly expend the energy that it takes to develop an opinion of it all. to really care.
with the end of the challenge i have to set out new rules of engagement for facebook. if i really don’t miss it, why am i not just deleting it? that is something that i am still grappling with.
where i am at now: i do not want to go back to how i was before. and while i am not ready to etch the terms in stone yet, i do know that the rules of engagement will include the following:
- no checking facebook on my phone (via browser or app)
- no checking facebook at work
- no checking facebook daily
in addition, i must check my google alerts because i have REALLY dropped the ball on birthdays!
how’s your relationship with the ol’ fb?