beauty school drop-out

so, in my time away from ahoy i looked into going to cosmetology school. i went and visited 4 different schools and made my decisions. i applied, was accepted, began the financial aide process, and signed a contract. and instead of feeling full of excitement and happiness, i wanted to barf. and i realized that maybe this wasn’t the right time for me.
i wanted to go to cosmetology school out of high school, but was persuaded to go to college instead. after college i didn’t want to go to anymore schooling of any kind. once i got into the work force i wasn’t willing to take on the financial aspect of going back to school, nor did i want to give up my lifestyle.
it seemed that at this pivotal point in my life, now would be the time to make major changes. i mean, i all ready had made several others and those seemed to be working out fine. the long term plan made sense…when i didn’t look at anything outside of my career.
i think that when b told me he would get used to being alone on saturdays that it all clicked in my head.
i didn’t want him to be alone on saturdays. i didn’t want to be in school or working every saturday for god knows how long. we didn’t move to the lake to have no time together to enjoy it. and why throw the extra, unnecessary stress on our first year of marriage? i was also reminded that my motto regarding work has always been that i work to live, i don’t live to work. and i was about to be living to work. and going into debt to do it.
no 3 day weekends in KC?
no trips to see liz in NYC?
no ski trips, beach trips or honeymoon for a year?
so i talked with the same important people who helped me make the decision to try in the first place and decided to not move forward with it. and i feel good about it.
so, i am not a beauty school drop-out, per say….more like beauty school back-out. and i am a-okay with that!