alone day

b left at 4:30 this morning to drive to a job site.

i woke up around 7:30, put on my robe and let the pups out.

i put one of many loads of laundry in the washer.

i called my sister and talked to her for about an hour.

i ate sweets for breakfast and put whipped cream in my coffee, that i proceed to drink on the deck.

i came in the office and sat down to write to you.

out of the corner of my eye i saw something scurry across the floor.

at first i thought it was a very large bug. but on second glance it was actually a very small lizard.

shit.  the dogs noticed the little guy around the same time. i quickly scooped him up and put him on the deck.

this is definitely a first.

little guy is still in the same spot i sat him. if he is still there when i am done writing this i will take him down to the forest.

since the wedding i have felt a little out of sorts. it was like i quit a job. i no longer had deadlines and projects to complete and oversee.

and i have still kept busy, all though accomplishing nothing tangible. this is hard for me.

today i am going to take a day to get my feet back under me. catch up on some laundry, some house work. but i also plan on creating. spending some time thinking about nothing that “matters”. just about colors and textures.

i started this piece before my show last year. it is a print that i bought a few years ago at an estate stale it wichita with kel. it is a large, fairly ornate frame that houses a print of a nature-scape. it is printed on some kind of particle board. i took a photo of the artist’s signature before i painted over it, but i can’t make it out or find anything online about it.

last year i had started to collage the sky and added a few other elements from magazines. i had colored over the original print with colored pencil and a little paint.

i could never figure out what to do with the rest.

mid-wedding insanity, i decided one day that i was just going to paint. nothing for the wedding. i wanted to play with color and step out of my comfort zone and use lots of paint. i am cheap and often try to use as little paint as possible, but really love art that uses paint with reckless abandon.

so in addition to starting a new piece, i spent some time on this old friend. i gave his stream more depth and added brightly colored flowers to it. and i love it.

that day i decided on a few other things to do, but then set them on the back burner. over the weekend i began tearing colors out of an instyle magazine liz left me. and today i hope to give them a home. and to feel at home in my mind.